When I look for answers, I usually put on my ‘spiritual’ goggles. But they haven’t been helping me so well defeating in a new wave of giants in my life. It made me run around in circles praying they will go away. So I looked for support. I asked a psychologist to help me with … Read more
I woke up in the middle of the night because of mosquitoes. Those little bloodsuckers that won’t leave you alone. One there, one here. One is landing on my face, one on my arm and I’m hitting myself black and blue, but they just keep buzzing and flying around looking for a new spot to … Read more
Many things grew crooked in me over the past yearsScratched look, weird dance, crooked pathTangled up inside But.. There’s beauty in being untangledFinding backYour life to liveThe right to beAnd stand up straightIn love To reach out andgrow back towards the Light
Between being on the one hand full of courage, faith and optimism. To the point where faith can feel like a mask and you can no longer breathe as a human being. There is no room for weaknesses, sighs, faltering, doubt and struggles, because everything should be in perfect shape. We like to be on … Read more
There’s this fantastic (bit of sarcasm here) movie ‘Starship Troopers’, where humanity (the Federation) has to fight against an alien species (the “Arachnids”, also called ‘Bugs’). First mankind suffers much loss as the Bugs seem to outsmart and outnumber them. At some point they realize there’s there’s a ‘brain-bug’, that is the mastermind behind the … Read more
I was worried. Am I growing enough ‘spiritually’ and are my fruits growing and showing? I’m wanting so hard to have fatty yummy fruits. Is there a growth or decline? There’s so much opportunity to have growth, but I just can’t seem to hold on to my part. The discipline to push through, on and … Read more
Getting out of a place of slavery, indoctrination a tyrannic dictatorshipwhere people are not allowed to express, move and leave freely captive by the fear of reprimand and punishment there’s a public display of wealth and success but people suffer silently, behind the curtains of isolation why don’t you come out of an imaginary North … Read more
Bending and twisting to fit expectations Shaped by the hands of mentoring opinions I can’t breathe, I can’t be, this ain’t me It’s a trick, it’s a scamMy spiritual guidance, mentor, instructor is to come from Holy Spirit before man But this hurt me so muchI’d be confused, thinking, is this God? Pushed from left, … Read more